True Colours

2009-02-28T13:23:00.000+08:00

I've MOVED to------------->
Petitelogy.livejournal.com
=)

2009-02-24T20:21:00.005+08:00

I'm screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewED!
Everything seems to be on the wrong track out of sudden.
Tear glands seem clot up to even cry over it.
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Growing up is very scaaryyy.

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Over let me scream for JOY on one thing.
EXAMS are OVER.
But the sun somehow refuse to shine brightly and the dark clouds don't seem to fade away.
HOW TO TANNNED!
I can imagine myself slacking my ass off on the beach reading 'New moon'
until I turn chao ta.
LIFE!...

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Well well not too bad
gonna head for chalet tml.
Last min plan by my classmates.
Think I should GO man.
Moment not to be missed!
But i checked the weather forecast and it says...BAD weather for the whole week
WHY LIKE THAT!
It's suppose to be SUNNY.

Seem like we always have this so call tradition to take class photo every end of the year. LOL

2009-02-19T22:07:00.003+08:00

Let me blog first before I'm buried in my books.

Sherry's MSN nick read as ' I LOVE Em3B'

WHAT! yes, that's sherry's nick. haha

Okie well I think I love it only if i know how to do the questions.

Those challenging ones that are not so challenging to me. haha

Love hate relationship.

ETE too.

I spell my weekend is burned.

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Attachment on the 9 of MARCH.

FAST man...

I want to go TAIWAN first.

Jem got me into the 'day-dreaming' mode when exam haven even started.

GeeeZ~

Oh, something random

I must remind myself

#1: to meet YIN MIN straight after exams!

#2: to find the book 'influence' by the Olsen twins.

See if its available in Singapore.

I'm quite interested in the book b'cos its the OLSON twins!

I remember when I was young I would keep myself busy with their books and movies!

haha

I know what jasmine is thinking. ' aiya, still Vanessa hudgen is hotter'

LOl!...right right right?

WHO CARES! haha

#3: Meet Pinky for tanning session.

#4: Finish my 'New moon' book before it rot and decompose.

AND ITS NOT MINE so the more I should finish it QUICK.
Okie, enough of a random post.

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2009-02-14T18:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY Valentine's DAY people.

The day before which is friday marks the end of my second year project!

Time really flies.

I kinda like NP.

Alot I guess.

And even though the process through the projects are madness and madening,

just look at the end results and i'm satisfied.

All paid off.

I really enjoy this sem's module EXCEPT ete and em3b. HAH

And my classmates to all of YOU,

you make going to sch interesting and FUN =)

THANKS all!

Now, study for exam!

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Can I wish for 21 XLB for my bday?

HAHAHAHAHAHA

I'm nuts.

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I like the olsen twins=)

I read an interview they had with Mary-kate.

Very good interview.

Very inspiring.

Set me thinking about my own life.

She's inspiring =)

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AH Chew dessert ROCKS.

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To be frank about my thoughts,

I feel so out of place.

The maturity

The games

The gap

is driving me no where.

Sometimes I wonder why am I place there.

I don't quite feel belong at times.

the conversation.

At times its just like a mask.

A smile that conceal the thoughts behind the head.

Ahhhhh....

I'm trying very hard to fit in.

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Check out my poster=)

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2009-02-11T21:41:00.003+08:00

Contradicting
Alittle disappointment
Yet like no feelings abt it.
Mmmmm...
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Mom ask why didn't you use your ang bao money to buy the charles and keith bag.
AIYO mentioning it make me REALLY REALLY WANT TO GET IT.
I want:
BAGS
Jackets
TOPs
Wedges
Give my lappy some colours- skin
Get over and done with EXAMS
and be a vampire like twilight to stop growing OLD.
HAHA
SIAO
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Korean Strawberries make me a happy girl=)

2009-02-07T21:24:00.003+08:00

I want prototyping to be OVER SOON.
So I can paint my nails=)
LOL!

Have you ever imagine...
one day while taking the SBS bus, you spotted this old lady who board the bus and you offer your sit to her HOWEVER she scold you well, she think she hasn't hit that age yet when obviously she's in her like 60's...LOL...
well, IT HAPPEN TO ME
SO MUCH FOR BEING good lo!

NEH just kidding, it didn't happen la...LOl!
Just some stupid random thought everytime I see some old lady/ah pek when they board the bus.
HAHA

check this out=) Quite satisfied with the hardwork. I LOVE THE MODULE. Year 2 elective so much more interesting then year 1. HAH Even though we get really busy and hate the work load but end of the day thinking back its worth the hardwork...SO I'm telling myself now to give my BEST in my current work! LOL...Just to see good results=)

Okie back to MDA2. HEADPHONE...HOPE it turns out COOL! BUT darn the hectice week man.

2009-02-05T20:13:00.002+08:00

I'm so busy!
Let me just release some stress HERE.
*SCAREM*
okay, finally art and design is done.
I re-do the self portrait for (*#(&$%&*$&(*)(^$ times
and the post card too.
I kept trying and trying and trying and finally a satisfied result.
I LOVE fad's self-portrait, can make one for me? hahaha!
and Wan's canvas drawing. N I C E!
Just to do the powerpoint, it took me like......till 4am the day before submission!
And I like my artist statement. LOL!
At first I thought was alittle crappy haha but after the praising from the lect i flew to the sky. LOL
And I've been staying in school to do my scissors modelling.
LIKE CRAZY!...
All the sanding is aching my hands, legs and body.
AND I kept sanding onto my nails...
Need to give some TLC.
Manicure any taker?
haha

2009-02-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

Haji lane anyone?

2009-02-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

Mom seem to be so excited about my Bday -.-
She keep mentioning who to invite and how I want to hold it as if its her Bday.
LMAO.
Moms are always Mom, they Motherly nature always acts up. Haha
This Bday, I seriously hope for more bags and clothing HAHA...
And the best wish of all would be...CAMERA. LOL
Okay, that just get me all excited again.
CNY wasn't that fantastic this year.
But at least we- cousins seem to be closer maybe cos we are all grown up.
I still remember when we were younger we used to play soccer at the void deck
and each time never fail to make someone cry during the game or someone will get hit in the face
by the ball. HILARIOUS.
And the Ang Baos seem more than this time.
So we grew older from playing soccer at the void deck to learning MJ- Mahjong.
Then we became 'experts' and move on to tai de and 21 points.
AND NOW WE ARE THE TU SHEN. LMAO.
Was fun, but too bad I didn't manage to capture the moment. SAD
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Friday was a happening day i thought.
Had CG steamboat for the 3rd time in the week.
I was alittle not myself when playing the game LOL.
I was so WOLS.
After that went out with Pinky, Timo and Jem.
Had a super long car ride as usual.
Something good cos I can get some rest. LOL
We intended to go Chomp Chomp but there's no parking space. =(
Then headed to Geylang for the porridge but park too far =(
So ended up eating some bean curd and yu tiao. Ma chiam like breakfast.
haha but nice relax and chill day after all the business.
=)
speaking about childishness
I'm being reminded about honor's reward
No matter how much you disrespect someone still the person owns to be respected
because there's a reason why he/she is place over you.

Just a line away

If you think

Breaking it and losing is something not a big deal,

you don't treasure

than to me its not worth while trying to holding on to it.

Think about it.

Time to let go

Time to move on.

2009-01-30T00:33:00.003+08:00

I dunno why but I seem to be losing it again.
I don't want to pick myself up all over again!...
Urgh.
-----THE END not much of an update----

2009-01-27T01:58:00.003+08:00

----Contradiction----
Past left behind
Or too much has left?
Yet still...
I'm looking forward with excitement
knowing something GREAT coming my way.
I've been living in days of excitement lately,
I don't know why but each day when I wake up itslike a new day to look forward.
Be it good or bad.
----Competition----
Honestly, too much is driving me nuts.
Too much of comparison is driving me mad.
Because I could only think about the eyes of others.
----Playlist----
Ne-yo: MAD
It has been played 56 times in my playlist.
NO kidding.
Its very addictive. HAHA
Don't you agree? YES.
----END of self-talk----

2009-01-24T23:01:00.002+08:00

------WARNING Don't come near me, I'll bite your head off-------

MY tian, my head is giving me alot of PAIN. Seriously, the pain was so unbearable first time lei. Need rest rest rest, water water water. Plenty of work to be completed man! oh ya, yesterday on my way home I bump onto quite a number of my friends, what a coincident. MC, been ages since I saw her. - HAPPY BELATED BDAY. And this guy from NP who I always see, just someone random and some other people can't really remember. Blame the STM. haha. OH and this week's BS was ultimately heart racing ' EXCITING', literally felt my heart bumping so hard as if it was about to explode but was so exciting. Good experience =)

--------------DISAPPOINTMENT------------

Just a spark of disappointment now. BUT do you know how disappointed I am! Why do you have to wear to many mask? I feel so cheated can. And I totally regretted sharing so many of my stuff with you. You are just so contridicting. my TIAN! So hard to believe it lei. Well happier note, at least i got to know you 'better'.

Talking about being sensitive there's many meaning to it. Let say, saying the right thing at the RIGHT TIME, how you put ur words whether is it very straight forward or being considerate?..well well...

I just lost of words for the time being...

2009-01-22T19:04:00.003+08:00

I'm super HIGH now!
I wanna scream and tell the whole world what happen...
Best day ever.
It felt so much like a dream * someone please slap me*
LMAO.
=)
-----------Next----------
Projects are like killing me.
EUCD
-Journal
-Modelling
-Prototype
MDA2
-Concept Generation
CADD2
-Pro E drawing
Art & Design
-Journal
-abstract drawing and portrait drawing..etc
-Touch up other work.
My TIAN.
Submission is week after CNY.
Double My TIAN.
How to go out and enjoy like that?
My mind gonna be filled with assignments and assignments.
Geeez
Imagine going for visition to my relative house and then do nth watch TV.
SUPEr waste time.
Can bring my work go there and do anot?
ma chiam no LIFE.
*eeeeeeek*
okay gotta cut the crap and continue doing my work.
-------------Just ranting---------------------------

You make me wanna FLY.

LMAO

When your eyes meet mine.

LMAO

- Steph pls tell me to chill... HAHAHA

*I'm sucha dumb ass*

LMAO

----------------Ignore Me----------------

2009-01-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

Hectic!
Projects submission are like back to back.
3 projects in hand. SHIOK*
I sound abit saddistic. haha
I just clean my ROOM today since MORNING.
Wah its worst than running 2.4km.
And I just realise that I've been living with so MUCH dust.
They are EVERYwhere.
eeeeew.
But now my room is DUST FREE. yay.
And I manage to dig out some old photos,
trophies I won,
I didn't know I could run man! hahaha
Legs short but can run okie!
And some dancing club I join in primary school
Was like some hell for me HAHA
Worst nightmare.
And I found this paper I wrote as a V.P in sec school.
I had to made a speech infront of the WHOLE school
wah, my legs were shaking.
I still remember.
Also I found this certificate I have for a drama class.
But I don't remember acting.
well well...N I C E reminiscing the good old times.
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Let talk about Eucd test.
I read the book to prepare myself for the test.
The BOOK is like some dictionary
Each time I start reading, Z monster would attack me.
Super boring book. HAh
And the test, wellll... what i read came out but dunno if I answer the question
correctly or just full of craps. HAH
Tell you a secret, everytime when the lecturer stand beside me while I'm doing test,
my brain would just shut down.
Geez
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My feelings for next tuesday hasn't kick in YET.
Worst then taking an exam!
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For the sake of Miss Tan Hai Ting ting ting ting...
1) what have you been doing recently?
Okay, going to school, rushing to class, study, eat and sleep.

2)Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
YES before I go to bed I don't want the radiation to kill my brain. Maybe thats the reason sometimes my phone alarm doesn't ring and that causes me to be late for class. HAHA

3) What happen 10am today?
Fighting with the dust and dirts in my room.

4)when did you last cry?
MMmmm I can't remember. Maybe my tear glands dry up liao. haha

5)Believe in fate/destiny
yeap.

6)What do you need in your life now?
Well, some excitment.

7)Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or a hood?
of cos umbrella la! hood, I'm not red riding hood

8)Whats you favourite thing to do on the bed?
listening to the music and let it bring me to lala land.

9)What bottoms are you wearing now?
black shorts.

10)What's the nicest thing in your inbox?
Ehhhh email ah? Handphone sms ah? which one, make up to your mind.

11)Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Nope! thought the oversize tee looks like.

12)Do you tend to make relationship complicated?
like what steph said ' ...all my relationships are complicated'
HAHAHA so copy cat.

13)What was the last movie you caught?
Twilight.

14)what are you proud of?
The old trophies I found in my room. hahaha

15)What does the oldest message in your inbox say?
* its blank*I just clear them.

16)What was the last song you sang out loud?
Ehhh wait let me think, Daphne khoo-Desperate. I sang while cleaning my room this afternoon cos no one was home so I sang freaking LOUD. hahahahahahahahaha Self-entertainment.

17)Do you have any nick names?
WAH this is so sensitive haha... Most of it got to do with my height so forget it. HAH...

18)What does the newest test say?
why so KAPO all my inbox message old one and new one also want to know.
There isn't any nice message. NO ONE MESSAG ME... SO SAD.

19)What time did you go to bed last night?
Mmmm 2 AM i think...

20)Are you currently happy?
WEll not really, when I have to type out every single question cos I cannot copy and PASTE!!

21)Who gives you the best advise?
My MOM and Bro.

22)Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Ehh... NO ONE. I didn't talk to any cute boys... HAHAHA

23)Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
NOPE. I HATE whipped cream. That explains why I very selective over cakes. HAHA

24)Is something bugging you now?
YES, when is this questioning going to end?

25)Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Stephanie TAN HAI HAI TING TING TINg

26)Whose name repeat the most in your inbox?
Tan Hai hai ting ting ting ting

27)what are you waiting for?
To finish this asap. HAHA

28)What are your 3 wishes now?
DSLR camera, Itouch and L O V E. HAHAHA...- actually I didn't want to say but since you have read till this far you should be awarded hahahahaha.
if there is number 4, I'll wish that i'll grow taller. HAHAHAHAHA

29)Who do you wish to see everyday?
HAHAHAHAHAHA someone who will make me smile! HAHA- I can sense the cheeky-ness from steph. HAHA

30)Tag 5 people to do this quiz?
The 5 who would be nice to volunteer themselves. HAHAHA

2009-01-11T23:39:00.002+08:00

charles and keith 75 dollars BAG!
AGAIN.
So tempting.
GOSH.
Today's word was GOOD!
Honor's Reward.
Surely did hit me hard.
Went Dint Tai Feng for Lunch with relatives.
Wah dim sum AGAIN.
Ate ONE pathetic XLB. =(
I dnt care I'm going there again to EAT more XLB.
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2009-01-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

I'm so freaking full after eating the Dim sum buffet.
*BURP*
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Your world seem so beautiful.
All so perfect.
I'm so drawn.
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Wah, Steph's standard so high huh.
But good taste.
I totally agree 'X' is HOT and handsome.
HAHAHA
CONTROL!- steph
I'm stress over school work.
Always so stressful.
Eating helps to release.
*like real*
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If giving/helping someone,
is something that you are so willing,
then you wouldn't expect anything in return
because it wouldn't be something out of the heart
but to gain profit from the person you have give/help.
And if thinking that the person made use of you,
then to you giving its just something that is out to gain something back in return.
CONCLUSION MADE.
What I've learn.
Thats the world man.
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When I first saw you,

I loved you,

and you smiled,

because you knew

- William Shakespeare

2009-01-09T01:37:00.001+08:00

The quote that caught my attention:

I love you

Not only for what you are

But for what I am When I am with you

- Roy Croft

2009-01-06T22:16:00.003+08:00

The radio says:

After farting you should walk zit-zig so that the smell won't follow you.

HAHA

I believe 2009 gonna be the BEST year yet.

So I believe I can get a boyfriend this year. HAHAHA

I get high after reading steph's blog.

Always make my day a crazy one.

And just now when i was reading her post

it says that she will make a post specially for the 500 person.

I was really laughing in front of my laptop.

Then I went to check, I was the 500th!

LMAO.

To steph: I rocks! you stone. HAHA

oops, random.

Love today's IS class.

Casting with hands, leg and whatever part you want.

SO fun.

Its like learning without walls =)

Make learning not a dreadful thing.

After talking to my friend last night.

His like so out of LOVE can.

Gosh.

Anyway, talking to him just make me recall what happen in '08

well all I can say to him is that opportunity don't come by easy

so grap hold of it while its still in sight!

Today like so free ah

like no assignment to do.

HAHA!

Not for LONG.

So envy HL own a DSLR.

2009-01-06T01:06:00.002+08:00

BIG THANKS TO SHERRY =)
you know what I mean.
School wasn't that bad
It was when the moment we got the news that Test was postpone.
YAY.
Back to the hectic days, sleepless nites, mid night oils...etc
BTW, the new canteen is so COOL
Waffles look so TEMPTING.
Gees
My New year resolution is to...stop being late for MORNING class.
HAHA
Seems so impossible.
well oh well...
Jem told me choir having recruitment.
Awww
TELL me what to do?!?!?!
Should I? shouldn't I?
Aiya!
I'm looking forward for Dim sum =)
I'm sucha glutton.
Eating my forte.
I still miss mushroom soup and pan-fried fish =(
I can go with it for a month i think. HAH
At the rate I'm spending on food
I can go broke soon.

Steph: Remember BREATH! LMAO.

...and you took my breath away?

2009-01-03T02:06:00.002+08:00

My day is 'LALALALALA'

Shopping Rocks!

Sales Rocks!

School? Bleah.

My day was suppose to be AWESOME

Till I receive a darn letter.

'Warning letter'

For what? missing class.

FREAKING....

Okay, I never miss class what!

I was late ONCE only.

PLEASE LOR!

GRRRRRR....

*tear paper into pieces and burn!*

ignore my rant.

Back to my AWESOME day.

I was finding 'New Moon' at Kino then toMPH...

Dissappointment!

OUT OF STOCK

sad=(

Anyway, no hurry.

Had dinner at some japanese restaurant.

However was more interested in Kenny rogers

and Thai express.

HAHA

Miss Thai express- reminds me of some moments.

Gee.

okay, tml gonna be a busy day clearing school work.

Time to pull up my socks.

You walked away from me.

2009-01-01T22:44:00.004+08:00

Twilight is so ADDICTIVE.

I'm done with the book.

I'm sure gonna move on to 'New Moon'

reading the book makes me wanna watch the movie once more.

GEeez!

Mind still very much invaded by DSLR.

HAHA

HI, everyone welcome to the year of 2009.

SOUND SO WEIRD.

2009, N I N E!

New Year Resolution

is...DSLR

Selena is CRAZY.

The New year makes me think I'm getting OLDER.

Ah so sad.

Aging!

LAO le la..=(

I watch the show on Channel 5 yesterday

'Maid in Manhattan'

so much like Cinderella.

My all time fav. fairy tale, still liking it.

EXACEPT alice in wonderland

its like some HORROR show to me

Even till NOW.

Shopping day tml!

Whoo Hoo...

Gotta plan my budget and STICK with it.

Looking back at how I spent my holidays...

Really Enjoyment.

Being a big time slacker, glutton, Tv addict, Book worm...

LOL..

'Rotting' is my forte=)

Once school resume
All i can think of is the lunch break, what to eat?
Salmon terriyaki ah?
like EVERYday!
We are killing so many salmons.
Recall my days in NP canteen 4...
I ate salmon countless times, the chicken, the burger, the malay rice...
STANDARD food.
Gosh...
well i heard there's a new canteen.
=)
Wonder how is the food.
BLEAH.
Till then, now i'm lost of words.

Fearless

Live life to the fullest=)

2008-12-31T16:46:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year dudes!
Lets make 3 wishes.
2 are already taken up,
but the last one yet to think of it =)
Some of the dudes are catching the sun rise...
Gosh so sad, can't go. BLEAH.
Counting down, less than a week to sch!
GEEEz.

'Mind so filled with DSLR.'

Beauty Lies In The Eyes Of The Beholder.

2008-12-30T21:05:00.003+08:00

Taken from steph's blog.

And steph taken it from Tylor Swift's album.

It's an explaination of the album's name 'Fearless'.

"Fearless is not the absence of fear.

It's not being completely unafraid.

To me, Fearless is having fears.

Fearless is having doubts.

Lots of them.

To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. Fearless is

falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before; Fearless is

walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen.

Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...

Even though everytime you've tried before, you've lost.

It's fearless to have faith that someday things will change.

Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone whoonly hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them.

I think it's Fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else.

And when someone apologises to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing,

I think it's Fearless to stop believing them. It's Fearless to say "you're not sorry",

and walk away.

I think loving someone despite what people thing is Fearless.

I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is Fearless.

Letting go is Fearless.

Then moving on and being alright...

That's fearless too.

But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it.

You have tobelieve in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.

That's why i write these songs. Because I think love is Fearless."

Think about it...

Thats all for today =)

2008-12-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

Reading the Twilight book makes me wanna watch the movie AGAIN!
Btw, *ahem* is not a person.
Just an expression.
HAHA

I spent my whole day reading the Twilight book.
I bet I wouldn't understand the book if not for the movie earlier on.
CHIM...

Popeye is DELICIOUS.
Except why they don't have tomato sauce?
or maybe they have?

There's on word on my mind now.
'SALES'
Pull and bear
Zara
Buffalo
Billabong
Mango
HAJI LANE

But I need to be alittle budget.
Maybe CHINA TOWN?
LOL... Wear rags and table clothes?
crazy.

The notebook bird gave me,
I've been thinking how to use it.
too beautiful that I can't bare to write anything on it.

gasped

2008-12-27T20:36:00.003+08:00

THANKS FOR ALL THE PRESENT...

Pretty notebook
Twilight book
Cards
Clothings
Nail polish
Make ups
ETC...

Thanks all!

I'm a happy girl.

This morning Jem sms me
saying something like ' Nana wanan go town? got alot of sale lei!'
HAHA
I was LMAO
so aunty can!
but I like sales.
I saw the Charles and Keith bag so N I C E
Billabong clothes are N I C E
Ahh.. so many n I C e stuff on my list.
Okie,
let me dream for a while.
If i got 1 million dollars,
the first thing I'll get is
DSLR.
so predictable right? HAHA
Maybe clear BF first then DSLR.
LOL

I don't mind if I only got ONE Bday present
which is DSLR.
LOl!
TTM

okay but if to let me choose between making a wish of having 'ahem' or DSLR.
OF COS 'AHEM' la!

Its okie if you dunno what I'm talking.
Cos I dnt exactly know it too..hahaha
Blogging make me feels alittle retard
Its like talking to MYSELF.

back to what i was saying...
I already thought of what wishes I want to make for New year, Bday, CNY and whatever festival.
I'm too free already haha.
Steph and Bird know. HAHA

okie well well,
TIME TO GET BACK TO REALITY.
gotta start getting myself to finish my assignments and project before sch starts.

But before that,
I wanna try making brownies
LOL.
TATA y'all

WAIT, something random.

Don't you think Selena Gomez is so pretty?

Someone pls tell me

'MOVE ON'

2008-12-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

I love the cold weather!

I want MONEY.

I want SHOPPING.

I want BAGS.
I want *AHEM*.
I want mushroom soup.
I want CLOTHINGS and DRESSES.
I want DSLR. - BADLY =(

Finally I get to step into HAJI lane.
The shops are way too COOL.
LOVE em.

New year is coming
meaning another year is coming
meaning birthday is coming
meaning i'm gonna get another year older.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

BIG thanks to all who wished me!

2008-12-24T02:11:00.002+08:00

Yay, i'm done with the cookies =)

Top photo you saw its not MOLD!

its icing sugar

I did some decoration on top.

I'm thinking of doing something new,

like when you bite the cookie the chocolate fudge will flow out from inside.

SHIOk... SINFUL.

Look there's a Christmas tree in my house.

I didn't notice the tree when I step into the house.

HOW CAN THAT BE.

SO blur la.

I'm truely sorry for those whom I've 'DAO'

haha seriously my eyes ah... so BLIND.

A few occasions when I was walking in school and right INFRONT of me was my friend

and I could actually miss them.

They even called my name lo.

gosh! so blind can!

I'm really sorry. HAH

Next time TRY HARDER okie.

And I'll try to be more observant.

Back to what I was saying,

Then a friend ask me,

any idea how xlb is made.

Wah..CHIM la that one.

IF i knew how to make them, you can see me turning into one.

EVERYday i'll make them.

I just added a new thingy in my blog.

The live traffic feeder.

SO COOL.

haha it makes me keep on linking to my own blog and see myself appearing at it.

HAH!

OKIE 1 more day to XMAS!

Merry merry XMAS everyone!

I still remember those words

'I knew you before I met you'

Totally caught me.

2008-12-23T20:11:00.003+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Steph is so drama MAMA.
She makes me HIGH.
When would I have the money to buy that NIKE shorts?
What to wear for Christmas?
Is my nail polish dry yet?
Should I get the Twilight book?
When will Love come?
And more stuff on my mind now... too private to type out. HAHA

I should quit multi-tasking.
I was painting my nail, reading magazine, tv and msn-ing
All at the same time.
HAHA
POWER!

I'll update more about my baking later.
And show u my pokie bag! hahaha
Its her name' pokie'

I still remember how it all started years ago

each time it just make my heart race.

All is not.

When all is disconnected.

So much for trying back then.

what about now?

If fate still playing us all?

2008-12-18T02:14:00.002+08:00

Speechless
Drain of all excuses
I could think of
Drain of all frustration
I could express
Drain of all words
No one could understand
Thinking...
At that point
wonder whens the turning point

Tears that carried so much thoughts
feelings that was so hard to express.
Tears that carried the helplessness
all the things in the world couldn't compare.

once again,
I wonder the moment i'm living in...
what should I do?
let it go?
yes...

2008-12-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

I'm so darn darn darn darn irritated by the smses i'm receiving lately.

GEEEZ

give me a break can?

the same 'thing' that keeps appearing.

IRRITATING.

US.

Missing the couple in the photo.

okie, happy holiday!

happy slacking, happy sleeping chilling...

I'm loving it!

cos the new term gonna be DEADLY.

Lets do some sports alright?

happier note,

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!

2008-12-11T21:38:00.002+08:00

Yay its the HOLIDAY!

Went towning with classmates and celebrated 3 boys birthday

Wan, Yi mian and Wen Long =)

Happy birthday=)

Ate at Jack's place AGAIN!

Had jack's twice in a week.

I'm simply falling in love with buddy hauggies.

The cozy chill out

esp their FOOD, fabulously delicious...

awesome =)

Okie, holidays gotta be PLAY hard, STUDY hard.

Ass-ignments and MORE ass-ignments.

So annoying.

Oh, and the new stuff I got,

Bagpack!!

Carrying it says' Welcome to ngee ann primary school'...

HAH well heck, as long as it kills the energy/ strength / STRESS to CARRY my lappy by hand!

Why not let the shoulders do the job?

OH, as I've said I'm a bag freak.

After getting the bag I spotted this SUPER DUPER cool sling bag from billabong at OG.

Ahhhhhh...So tempting.

But no MOLA.

Should I work to get mola?

No good stressing over MOLA.

Currently I'm very into baking all of a sudden.

Its just an urge to learn baking.

I dunno why. HAHA

Trying to be feminine...HAHA

But at least I gotta learn one or two stuff about working in the kitchen eh?

I know nuts about cooking so maybe baking?

LOL.

okie, I'll see what to bake tml =)

Yay, to holidays!

My bones starting to feel lazy.

Yay, I can sleep all I want.

alrighty needa catch up with friends.

TATA!

I'm afraid

maybe I just gave the wrong impression.

Maybe not wanting to be in one

is because I have yet to find one.

Leaving my options open.

and sad to say....

nope to you.

2008-12-07T18:58:00.003+08:00

I need to focus one thing at a time!

So many things coming my way,

getting little out of hand.

Every time when I do get to see you,

my heart just go out for you.

Seeing the limitations you have in your life,

bring about an indescribable feeling inside of me.

Sometimes I wonder what can I do to make an impact in your life.

PS:Thanks for the headphone =)=)=)

2008-12-04T20:15:00.005+08:00

Read william's post and I guess I'm no where far from him.
SAMA SAMA.
Can I fade away too?
I starting to feel EXHAUSTED!

This morning seem to be so much brighter and sunny anddddddd happier,
when bumming onto you.
weird enough, that was how I felt.

Had two quiz this morning back to back.
Struggled through BOTH.
Once again I had the sudden 'blank-ness' when I was doing my maths paper.
Hate it!
Simple question stumbled me.
I went blank!
Ahhh... Stress is kicking in.
Feel the tension in the air?

I can't wait for money to fall from heaven.
I want that dickies bagpack!
LOL.
Wait till I get B's pressie.
and V's too.
Then I'll see how much I left in my 'piggy' bank.
Since when I'm so nice?
I wonder will I still get a pressie from mom and dad.

I see ' Good Bye Holidays'...
Currently, assignments are snow balling for holiday.
IS: Wire humaniod structure
MDA2: Presentation first week of school
EUCD: Project 2
ETE: Project 2 presentation
Can you feel the shiok-ness?

Thanks sherry for being concern. =)

The feeling that make you fly.

The feeling that make your everyday so sweet.

When it doesn't come, you want it so much.

When it comes, you ponder so hard

causing you to be in dilemma.

You gave it up once because of 'that'

so will you give it up again for that?

2008-12-03T02:29:00.002+08:00

Not yet, not ready, not now.

Maybe haven found one.

G T. *only stef knows* HAH

IS class is FUN.

Lect is interesting.

Hands on is super duper cool and fun.

Time flies when you are enjoying.

I firmly made the decision not to stay.

Sadly I can't bare to leave.

I don't know why.

I really had the intention to stay out of emotional....

Well, I'm sorry...

for the disappointment.

Maybe I'm just afraid.

ALL THE BEST!

To you: I know you can do a great job. Don't worry i'll still be there whenever you need me=)

Including doing the sai kangs. haha

2008-12-01T20:23:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the Love...del!

Also R for remembering me even though you are overseas and gotten me a small little gift =)

2008-11-30T18:58:00.004+08:00

I recounted how many weddings I attended this year and it was madly,
5 weddings!
whoo hoo...

BAG craze.

Okie, know what?

And I also counted the number of bags I own out of boredom and realised that I owned 10 bags!!

Okie, now I kinda realised that I over spent on bags.

But I like BAGs!

which girl will complain that she have enough of bags?

well, if you are willing to add to my collection I'm happy enough to receive =)

Awww, sherry went to check out the head phone.

But, there's isn't a cheap one.

The WHITE one she saw was 101 dollars.

so expensive.

MOLA MOLA MOLA- money.

If only money is so easily obtain like in pet society.

shit turn money,

tree able to drop money,

racing for money,

HAHA...

Okie, I think too MUCH.

Count down for assignments.

I got 14 Journal

EUCD research

MDA2 test

CDD2 test

TutorialS

and Common Test is next week.

How to start studying like that?

Well well,

I guess Bird was right about me.

Maybe I'm just too busy with my own stuff that I'm disconnected with the people around me.

So, tell me what I should do to save the friendships I had.

As the words are uttered

Like how the melody goes

I realised

I lost the first love

I once had for you.

2008-11-29T18:51:00.004+08:00

Not too good lately.
Everyone's not too.
so who can hear me out?

A simple song
To turn a heart
A melody
That makes you forget who you are
A smile
That pierces the darkest dark
Could it reach the farthest place?
Even void of space?
Or cracked the hardest ice,
The coldest vice...

Study out anyone?

2008-11-28T21:38:00.005+08:00

Today's code: RED

Christmas = presentS = Happiness

Can I go Hiatus?

I'm seem to enjoy weekdays with all the madness of school work.

Rather than fri and sun.

Hiatus?

I dont' fit

I can't adjust

I've changed all I can

Move me if you must

I'm not sure

Not much at peace

I'm drowned in this noise

These voices testing me

I need to step out

So i can look in

Give me a reason

Before it all ends

2008-11-23T20:40:00.005+08:00

You never know when the tables will be turn on you.

I want to join Photography ministry.
BUT
BUT
BUT...
No D S L R.

2008-11-22T17:47:00.006+08:00

My first PDI gathering was FUN to the MAX, although not max to the max but quite max. The Win, Lose, or draw was dope! haha Seems like after all the Taboo game we have been playing helps ALOT or maybe our class do have the chemistry? haha Yea, Copic markers! LOL... Like some cheapskate.

Touch Ruby fun eh?

Photography too?

School work is forever and ever and ever piling up.

Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh *till out of breath*

Lastly, Jasmine without her we won't be able to win the Copic markers.

Don't thick skin ah! LOL

Through out the whole game all her guesses was just one word be it right or wrong, 'ASSEMBLY'.

N I C E one.

Will it last?

When it haven even start.

2008-11-19T03:20:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow is another day

World full of lies

I'm all alone.

whether to frown or to smile

You decide.

I suddenly thought about something very random.

Do you know why Singapore don't have Santa clause?

And why everytime when you make a wish hoping santa will bless you something and he didn't?

Cos we don't have chimney.

2008-11-13T02:15:00.002+08:00

Time passing so fast

I'm having a hard time catching up.

Everything is just so fast paced

I find not room to breathe.

Lately I've been feeling so tied up in everyways.

well well...

Yea yea...

I'mLoving photography class=)

Well, though at times I dread doing the assignments because I don't get to take what I like.

But eventually when you start being creative and begin taking some interesting shots,

it just keeps me going.

SMILE

Another thing is that, it seems like we enter into a whole of our own.

Just quietly taking photos and getting into that emotion...

HAH pretty fun.

Candid shots are fun too=)

Okay, Anyone wanna donate to the 'Selena Foundation'?

DSLR okay?

haha

Gosh, I just bought my 5th calculator.

Lost twice and spoiled twice.

Heart pain*

The one I lost is just so NEW.

SAD

Somtime conversation don't have to be filled with judgement in order to find interest.

shallow lei...

Well, so whats a good conversation?

2008-11-08T14:41:00.003+08:00

Whole week I've been telling myself that 'It's okie to be myself'

For the week I've been feeling lethargic.

Must be the the Sunday night that I forgo my sleep and chiong my school work that cause the body clock to go haywire.

Alrighty, time to catch up with my school work.

Criticising others to make yourself feel good?

2008-11-02T02:01:00.006+08:00

Today was my second time at SBG in a week =)
Very satisfying when you manage to get a good shot.
Feels good.
But seeing those people carrying a DSLR walking around...
WOAH~ Very tempting.
*pray HARD*
AND I very much want to go butterfly garden.
Anyone?

I can't believe how scattered brain I can be.
Kept remembering the wrong date and time to hand up assignments
and that's serious!
Its to a point that I gotta write things down.
I dislike such STM, so unhealthy.
School's assignment is like snow ball.

I'm missing XLB.
When can I have some?

When the one that came wasn't what I wanted...
so disappointing CAN!
WHEN WHEN WHEN?
GOD, When?

Okie, thats all now but before that let me share my fav shots for today =)
btw the water droplets are REAL! cool eh?

I've given my all

I thought there was more

but I was wrong

I'm no greater than before

Broken my soul

I'm done with it all

You've fractured my heart

Too many times before

Tata! *Smile*

2008-10-31T15:48:00.002+08:00

The feeling of being in my own world.

Went to catch HMS3 with Pinky.

Felt weird wearing shirt, shorts and slippers walking around town like that!

Pinky know what I mean.

The movie is nice sweet but storyline is always the SAME!

I like vanessa hudgen's accent haha...

[School]

I'm so clueless about ETE.

Gosh.

I think I'm down with stomach flu.

Been visiting the loo for like 48572490680468 times.

Tues class was at botanic garden.

Freaking COOL can...

I like the orchard garden!

And mount faber park is cool too

esp the 'jewel box' I saw up in the 'hill'

freaking romantic and coolness. =)

lately I've been complaining alot about my camera.

Maybe my skill lousy la but the camera really getting on my nerves.

hahaha admit it!

[Shopping]

Finally I resist shopping for like a month or so...

And I just gotta continue doing that before I get broke again.

but before that, can I get a grey legging first? =)

LOL.

All of a sudden I got the urge to get bangles or some cool necklace.

So not me!

And my hair is taking ages to grow man...

Which girl doesn't like shopping u tell me?

Oh, headphones are cool too!

Nice, i want!

My post have always been so random and I'm running out of words to talk about. HAH

Define friendship?

2008-10-21T23:38:00.002+08:00

I really LOVE photography class.
Maybe not so when it comes to presentation of the work
but I like what I'm learning.

Awesome WEEK.
Awesome MORNING.
- Cos...
Awesome WEEKEND.
I foresee an awesome week next week.

You never know when you are missing the opportunity

when you don't make a move now =)

2008-10-14T01:08:00.003+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

Something amazing, I manage to wake up in time for 8am lesson.
HAH I'm so happy.
Sleeping at 9pm sure was a good idea.
But see now I'm sleeping at 2am again...
Okie, needa be discipline on sleeping early to get rid of the pimples and so on...

wah, school books are expensive to the max.
with that amt of money I can go shopping and be back with at least a few tops.

HAHA...

Imagine the design book cost 95 dollars. =(

well, manage to shop alittle with mom. hehehe
Cotton on shop is kinda cooooooooooool...
Their concept quite close to topshop but much cheaper.
Oh, I'm glad that SinEe manage to get that job =)

You: Do your best don't worry everything gonna be alrighty. I believe you will do it well. SMILE =).

Take one step at a time.

You place me in this time,

In this moment

I run side by side

Those whom you choose

Obviously there is a reason

For all is crafted by you

Destiny of which I do not yet know

Your words teaches me trust and

patience

You fill me with peace

And still my mind

So I can see

Thank you Jesus

For making me.

2008-10-11T22:04:00.004+08:00

Pls let me RANT:
School gonna start!
I don't want!
FREAK.

I'm not a kid dnt treat me like one. Thanks
For goodness sake I'm 20 this year lo
Imagine when you reach 24 25 yrs old your mom still ask you to go toliet before you leave the house.
And your friends treating you like some small girl.

Who would like someone to push, tell you what to do, pressure you...etc
Like kanna manipulate la...
GET A LIFE pls.
Just for that reason sometimes I tend to feel happy where I am right now. ZZZ -.-

and to you, you just got to choose between love or pride.

Okie, a proper post.
Those words on the top speak of different matter.
Anyway, back to school... Timetable just shucks big time
And the modules seems to be TOUGH.
WAH, I realised that it have been god-knows-when since I entered town.
I'm in my own world man.
The thought of 4pm after school crowd...
5pm after school crowd-HERD.
Total turn off.
Freaking sian.
Even though my house is near still...
so near yet so far.
haha
Okie, I'm bored now.
Wanna chill?

I called out to you and you answered me

I reach out and reply on you,

you never leave

you protect me

you lift me up and carry me through

Though my feet get tired

And my sight draws weary

I stll hear your voice in my heart

I feel your presence all around

You give me vision an follow it through

Inspire my dreams,

Then make them come true

When I'm lost

I'm feeling alone

you comfort my soul

you bring me hope.

2008-10-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

... well ... you shouldn't let her go if she want too..

2008-10-07T12:20:00.002+08:00

This is how i feel.
So much of remembering and looking at those words...
could actually make me think and dream of it.
scary.
The more try the more it...

Anyway, holiday gonna be over SOON.
And I've yet to buy the books and print my timetable. HAH
What a lazy ass.
I wonder if I have a puppy at home how would it be...hehehe
like so DARN cute.

This week gonna be so packed with bowling.
Monday just had a league
Tuesday training
Fri bowling
Sat training
All the travellng gonna burst my wallet.
Gonna eat more grass...

2008-10-03T03:38:00.003+08:00

Okie these are part 2 uploads. Hah

Msn is slowly transfering those file from HL.

I just over used my brain by doing my 8 days study trip report and ppt.

Trying very hard to recall the whole trip squeezing every brain juice I got.

So tough...

Once again I'm gonna repeat myself that the trip is indeed fruitful.

I still miss Muji =(

That shop is addictive.

Things on my list currently would be PSP- seems near yet far, Jacket, dresses, pencil case, Camera, new bowling ball AND not to be miss out Godiva dark chocolate biscuits!*I'll fall in love with you for that* =)

Everything just requires mooola...

Let talk about people today,

Ask yourself how many sides do you have?

Well, sometimes you seem all so innocent yet at the back of my head I beg to differ.

Talking about you just make me feel like that part of you.

That made me wanna part, draw away...

Everything about you is just so hard to phantom.

Every words and action seem so fake.

Get a life.

From now no more of you and me in you.

From that day everything seem to have cease for good or bad?

Awkward thinking about the past.

Thinking how foolish back then, how silly...

However that made part of the memory.

Give some space

ive some space

Deep as the ocean like those thoughts

No words could explain

No actions could express

Only the music on the radio breaking the silent

breaking the thoughts...

Singing If you have a bad day just sing a sad song and turn it around.

A very 'cui' post. haha

Don't try to break the codes.

Okie, I just wanna end off by telling myself...

Welcome to the real world.

Before I go lala land I wanna say I miss you guys =)

okie NIGHT/ Morning.

Smile.

Tata.

2008-10-01T17:57:00.004+08:00

Not long ago 'Ahem' just told me something that made me wanna PUKE.

Gonna make it clear that...

I'M NOT WITH 'Ahem'

At least someone handsome la.

*&$(&)^*$(&^)(*(#&*#%

*Draw line with RED marker*

Seriously, I got a big problem with your attitude at work.

As a friend I'm fine...

Ooops I'm distracted again...

Suppose to be doing my report and ppt.

SO lame. I mean the report.

The whole china trip thingy felt like a dream well some say nightmare. haha

okie, random post... alrighty got to get back to work.

TATA

I'm Single LOL

2008-09-27T00:38:00.001+08:00

OH MAN...I'm in LOVE with Muji. =)
They got small little cute snacks that look too cute to be eaten.
Nice cool bags.
I bought one of them hehe...
Okie the sales person almost cheat my money. JK
Just a small mistake, he key in the amount $152 and PH and I was totally stunt.
Me: May I know the price of the bag again?
Sales person: Oh, sorry its an error. Its $52
Me: phew *COLD SWEAT!*
Also they got nice pencil case which I had to get one cos my current pencil case got ink stains.
I was so dumb that I totally for get to close my marker's cap...DARN.
red pencil case turn out black.
And they got nice bottles...very stylish.
AND MANY MANY MORE...
very high class tai tai shop I mean high class diaso shop. oooPS
hahaha..
Okie thats all for today.

Happy BIRTHDAY L.

2008-09-24T16:48:00.006+08:00

Thats all for now =)

Will update the photos once I get them from 'Hua Lu'.

I manage to get Photography and Art&Design for my IS module.

All thanks to PH for help. HAH

I'm so looking forward for photography =)

Oh I manage to finish reading 'Yakuza Moon' within a day.

First time.

Yea yea...

I need retail therapy.

So many things I want.

Never enough haha...

2008-09-23T01:51:00.006+08:00

Back from China =)

Okie I found out that I like taking plane, looking at the skyline and being above the clouds certainly felt GREAT.

Total culture shock when we were there at wuxi.
We went to 4 cities wuxi, hangzhou, suzhou and shanghai.
Wuxi was the longest b'cos we had to visit the industrial areas...
Witness how hard disk is being assembled, how clay figuring was made, silk factory, how tea leaves are produced, amazing tea pots...and etc...
Visited their art schools and museums, not to be missed are the GARDENS.
Lost count of the gardens we went.
The weather was freaking hot there but nevertheless electronic fans and 'manuel' fans came handy at that time. hahaha

The food there was super duper uber salty and so the time I dread most are the meals.
However the fast food restaurant food are not to bad esp the KFC egg tarts are my favourite =)
AND I superly love the revolving restaurant where the platform will rotate around the restaurant, their food is delicious too...
Culture exchange night was fun too esp the skit that we came up...I'm glad I'm involve in the skit at least it leaves some interesting memories eh?! I had to act as an old woman...haha

The hotels...
CMI
Hangzhou's was Very good.
Wuxi was good.
Shanghai was BAD!
The bed felt like some wooden plank that we are sleeping on.
Shanghai one felt like some sleazy hotel haha and the lighting ar....like NO LIGHT...
Can't even tell if its day time I guess their woker have been experiencing night though out the wholeyear and I bet they don't know how does the sun look like.
AND the hotel got no window...'N-I-C-E' that explains...
Toliet super duper small...

Then we had the opportunity to take the train that goes at 400 plus km/h thus it took us 20 mins to reach the airport. And we saw a super duper handsome korean man on board. *Aww*
LOL we also went to the tall tower like around 200 something storeys, super duper high...

Alrighty I'll upload the pics asap so I dnt have to keep typing and repeating myself...haha

tata=)

2008-09-13T01:56:00.004+08:00

Double blessing!

First a book from Lawrence. THANKS!
Was kinda broke to buy the book hence i was intending to delay getting the book and FINALLY it came as a surprise =)

Next was the 100 dollar bowling voucher by my 'BROTHER'... Okie came just in time when Dad was commenting that my bowling balls are too old when he saw me bowling with my dusty bowling balls. YES they are to the extend that they can't be found in the market...HAH Well, I can get a new ball and Dad *pray hard* he will sponsor the rest of the money...HEHE!

And another SUPER HAPPY note, I'll be taking Sinagpore airline both flying there and back =)! coolness.

And and my mom is a pro bag packer..LOL! She can really spur -nag me to pack and I broke my record time for packing. haha BUT ended up she did it herself.

I'll be back from china on 21 sept =)
TATA!

Ibelievesomedayyes,someday

thatdaywoldcome

ifiholdonlongerenough

futurebelongstothosewhoplan.

2008-09-12T02:20:00.008+08:00

OUCH...
I should have kept that question to myself.
Your reply just HURTS and CUTS...
Sigh...

Just bowled 8 games today well, at least I didn't go home empty handed.
Dad was reluctant to sponsor but still he did and even came down to support =)
Thanks mom and dad.
I manage to make my mark on the 10th position...
Well, could have been on the 6th if I've maintain.
Disappointed with my spares lah...
Sad...

Saw my sweet Yinming today...

Looking good eh? hah

well, catch up soon! =)

Once again she cried herself to bed.
Isn't sure its b'cos of ur presence or the hurt that she is keeping inside of her.
But life seems so lost, useless, bothersome..etc

Never in her life she felt so useless.

Feeling of the fears ahead in her future all of a sudden seems...dark.

Thinking of a long lost love and now she found...

yet isn't sure of what to do.

Well, it has been long since such mind draining stuff happens...

Will it still?...

I finding the answer for her.

2008-09-10T17:19:00.003+08:00

Chase Crawford. HANDSOME.

Subway is yummy. Just saw this 'colourful' apartment on my way home and I asked myself a question, why people like to hang their clothes on the window? As I happen to see this apartment from my house down stairs and was freaking colourful like 'woah' the clothings practically act as a curtain. SUPER COLOURFUL...I wonder if it is undergarment how many would it take to make it colourful. hahaha =)

IWantYouBackInMyLife.

2008-09-09T13:52:00.003+08:00

Yesterday for the whole day I was being bothered by Thursday's event.
Mmm excited?nervous? I don't know but thoughts of defeat kept filling my head.
BUT after QT, I felt so full of faith =) I sense a big change coming my way. I seriously hope it isn't something bigger than what I can handle.

Sometimes human being human, knowing that it is wrong yet still choose to do it. Is there any other choice besides that?

China trip is drawing near and I'm still not ready for it as I've yet to pack my stuff, however I just came up a list of my own to make sure that I bring the necessary stuff.

okie off now...

FM Static - Tonight -

2008-09-06T02:14:00.003+08:00

Building castle in the sky...

I miss those smses

Those words that seem to sink deep in me.

Your prescence that lifted my spirit.

Honest words that flows out from your heart...

Even though all are gone...

They are still part in me.

See me and do what you thought you should have done....

End of building castle...

If only__________reading

2008-09-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

Seems like bowling marathon.
4 games for league on monday. pretty satisfied =)
8 games on tuesday for school selection. Not that satisfied but manage to get in =)
and another 2 hours of bowling training today. CUI! My bowling timing totally off...
Something is wrong somewhere...
BREAKTHROUGH.

Sometime being TOO nice people tend to take advantage of ur kindness...
Thus, sometimes its good to make a stand.
I'm having second thoughts about staying...DARN.

Have been talking to mom abt one of the issues in my life.
And DARN I'm having second thoughts about my decision that I made.
I wish I could turn back and re-write BUT I'm not sure if I should.

Sometimes there's a struggle to remain the person I am.
Grass is always greener on the other side...- don't quite fit the situation but thats how I would relate the issue.
But still this is ME.
Don't force...

wah the 109 dollars bag very nice from esprit causeway point.

wah the guess bag very nice also

wah the burberry wallet very nice too

wah all so expensive =(

2008-08-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

School ended with a formal presentation in the design studio.

Freaking nervous!

N-I-C-E experience. Will update more photos about the presentation.

Coming up next...

CHI-NA trip =)

BUT first i gotta get started on the presentation and report. HAH

dread.

excited for the trip but i hate packing the stuff...

Gonna take me hours doing it.

Busy with bowling trainings.

AH why events always got to clash? TELL ME WHY.

I'm always caught in between...making decisions...

...hopefully not out of impulsion or NO indecisiveness.

'When the going gets tough, the tough goes SHOPPING..'

Number 1 list...BOOK- I'm not a geek dnt get me wrong.

But the book just caught my attention, 'Yakuza Moon' yes, i'm gonna get it =)

Bag? clothing? Maybe clothing comes first before bag.

I'm so into bags LOL

Jason gonna say 'Nana got so many bags that you can't count em'

BUT seriously, which girl have enough bags? HAH

or clothing?

And Jason, you need a BAG la....the hole so big and u still can live with it?! haha

Oh, just remember I bought a jacket recently =X hah

Having very deep thoughts now...okie, BYE.

Leona Lewisrocks!

Footprints in the Sand - Leona Lewis

2008-08-23T18:40:00.003+08:00

YEA! *jump flip somersault*
holiday!
I'm a happy girl.

Mmm..
What to do?

Ps: Kobe Bryant rox! ho ho ho

2008-08-17T03:35:00.004+08:00

Emotions...to...

Words that couldn't seem to flow out of my mouth

Feeling so handicap

Saying no wasn't easy neither was yes.

All I could do was to keep those thoughts in my 'bank'

And let the music fill the cracks.

2008-08-16T02:05:00.002+08:00

Old picture from the F1 event that our class went to help out.
Buried myself with my books. EXAM once again...
All the studying is keeping my mind too awake that I had a hard time putting myself to bed.
Imagine I had to stare at the ceiling for freaking 3 hours!

I totally LOVE the book that edmund gave. =)
I remebered that I wanted to get that book however the book was alittle pricy...
FINALLY, I own them. YUPPIE yaya!
Totally enjoy reading the poems...
I read it immediately after cg HAH...
And the book is B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L.
Very creative designed pages and girlish... NICE
=)=)=)

Got to start planning for holidays...
HAH work, not?
Exercise?
But i doubt i had the time to work due to the POlites that are drawing near...Mmm
Gotta work on my stamina...
Brush up on my photoshop skills and whatever programmes...SERIOUSLY.
*shake head*

Time to go lala land!
no insomia please!

I get confused by my own emotions

Lost in my own thoughts

One leads to another

Until suddenly I'm dealing with a crisis

I didn't know existed before

2008-08-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

Listening to New kid on the block- Summer time.
ANYONE OWN THAT SONG? Ps share =) hahaha
Wan's blog entry is FREAKING funny!
And I found this interesting 'Blogthings' on fuzzlee blog. Its about name.

What Selena Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-08-05T23:56:00.006+08:00

I'm back...

I still got the cheek to blog when I'm frigging flooded with assignments and also had time for bowling training. Well done Selena. =(

Didn't really bowl well today.

With so many things in my mind...JAMed...

I was in dilemma if i should go for training but well...ended up I went.

Thurs another training...Time to change my finger insert, I've been draggin it since last last last week.

Next monday I'm bowling in a league at CSC...WAHHH I'm so excited and nervous...

Today training was rather boring b'cos I just can't get the 'feel' of it...

Not rev, no speed...aiyooo...

Manage to catch up with pinky last week!

Shiok...

Shop like tai tai, like 'real'

B'cos I got to use my Mango voucher due to its expiry...Came just in time when I bought that pants. Thurs formal presentation..shucks.

Then had supper at bukit timah AT FIRST but the place was flooded with people so headed to great world that area to eat.

Till now I still got the urge for PRATA...

Haha Look at chiat's blog...it was like 2 or 3 am when I was asking him about some questions on our assignment using msn on my tablet PC ...hahaha JOKE.

what has been done to the lappy in lecture class when we are told to 'close' our lappy. LOL

The printing shop in school has a very dumb idea in safe guarding their scissors. =) Try harder next time. haha oops that is mean. *Dn't laugh*

Okie tilt ur head... Emo lecture HAH. Always meddle with the door.

Thats what you should do to kill time in class. * CUT UR FINGER NAILS* lastest trend.

PS, random post. HAH

Call me bad, call me mean

I shouldn't lead you on.

Got to do something.

2008-07-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

I thought what I'm doing I should be enjoying myself
However it seems all so fake, routine and draggy...
Don't look at the outward...
Deep down I'm starting to detest it.
SERIOUSLY

I want to go.
Just let me...

2008-07-16T01:42:00.003+08:00

Freak!
School work hasn't been going well.
BUCK UP
Pull up the socks
Work HARDER
Spirit of Excellence
Stop PRCASTINATING

2008-07-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

Finding Identity

The snow comes,
Covering every inch of the tree,
Hiding its innocence
That is perceived by the human mind.
It hides every flaw,
Every spectacle it creates, and Every bit of happiness in it.
It hides the tears that drip
From its branches.
It hides the little individuality
Left inside its trunk.
It deceives how people look at it,
What they think of it, and
What it is.
It creates a whole new life,
A whole new look, and
A whole new mind.
It causes pain deep inside,
Depression that is unconquerable, and
Happiness to dwindle.
It leaves the tree Alone and different.
The sun comes up,
The snow melts away, and It brings happiness to life,
Flaws to escape concealment, and
Individuality.
It reveals what's underneath, What it really is, and
Unbeatable innocence.
It causes that mask
To melt away.
It makes that tree Be itself.
It makes the mask disappear.
The tree's mask is off.
My mask is off.
My mask is off.

by Gene Caouette

2008-07-14T02:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why there's always someone who does better than me in every ways. It was my best and its my best effort yet still I find myself at the bottom. Maybe its just not enough. I feel lousy whenever people over takes me...Where's that fighter? Once gone and forever lost. Sometimes people are just so naturally good at it that you can't do anything about it. Well resign to fate? However that's not the end. Things can be changed...when your thinking changes. I like the phrase ' Passion beats talent'. Aiya but that feeling cannot be stopped. I just don't understand why can't I beat it!

Dilemma is something that I dislike the most, it makes you sit on the fence. Neither here nor there the feeling just shucks. I wish I can be sure of myself and I hope that it wasn't a replacement for what that was clinging onto. I saw that and its still in my life I guess. That indescribable thingy that annoys me sometimes and it still appears once a while. I'm sorry for being such a ...***. I can't bring myself to tell you that. EMO post haha I bet you dunno what I'm talking about hahaha and thats my point. hahaha

Disappointment! Handed up the poster late when I'm NOT suppose to cos I finished it before hand! WHY WHY WHY... Darn it. I'm just so affected by it... I can't get over the facts that I had no inspiration to do it and its a sloppy work and the printing just sucks. Well its over... OVER.

When will I see the light at the end of the tunnel?

2008-07-04T17:53:00.004+08:00

The joke of the month. HAHA
Only some would know what these pictures are talking about.
Well it sums up everything about school this week. hah
Fancy us using a screw driver from the table to act as a cigarette. LOL!
How dumb is that.
And a EMO lecturer meddling with the door...*some drug addict* LOL
Recalling all the encounters are making me LAUGH infront of my 'Xiao Hei'-Laptop.
Oh and Jasmine is addicted to elmo's BUTT...HAH...
And see the top picture with the suitcase? That looked like 'Fujitsu' suitcase. HAHA
The the laptop stand that looked like a pokemon ball...is where pokemon's friend stay...haha
I getting a little NUTTY.

Something RANDOM.
I'm frustrated!
It is really frustrated when FINALLY I came up with a design that is satisfying YET the lack in the knowledge in using solid thinking or pro e doesn't allow me.
Well oh well....SIGH...
JOURNAL is like snow ball...FREAKING 29 entries by Monday...SHIOK.
But actually sketching is fun when you see the end result of the sketch.... very satisfying but sometimes disappointing.

Bowling league was last night and NP bowled pretty FAST.
Reason, NUS team 2 bowled in the afternoon already.
I'm still wondering whats my handicap?!?!
I need to break the average of 170 man...!
Upwards not downwards....
New bowling ball is coming to my mind...NO that thought cannot come at this time.

Back track.
I went to sentosa on last sat to meet some of my secondary school friends and my maths teacher.
hahaha I bet I really did gave her a tough time teaching me. HAH
Played the usual game at sentosa...
Nice meeting them up once again since we hardly get to see each other...

Currently my mind is filled with singfest....
There's Jason Mraz, Alicia keys and etc...
AND the tickets are fringging ex!
I guess I only can hear them on my Ipod.

GSS is a killer.
Shopping is a killer.
Mom's Bday present is a killer HAHA...Well as long as she likes it.
Tommy watch and secret recipe LEI!
I can eat air, eat grass...*but not shit*....already...
GEEES...
PLS DONATE TO THE SELENA FOUNDATION, THANK YOU! =)

And the China trip that i'm suppose to pay myself is making me a cheapskate...
Canteen 4 Pokka green tea cost fringing one dollar
while the vending machine Heaven and Earth green tea cost 60 cents!
EAT MY MONEY.

Thank you for reading.

tata

I wish for a 1 million dollar in my bank
Then I can shop and eat and slack like a tai tai...
Yes, I know I'm near to it.
DREAM ON hahaahaha...
NUTTY

2008-06-28T01:50:00.002+08:00

Thanks for being so 'understanding'
What friends.

I agree, ain't easy to find.

2008-06-21T03:43:00.004+08:00

Love is budding.

3.45am and I'm blogging. I got used to sleeping at such hours ever since I enter into poly HAH so I'm kinda use to it. ANYWAY, I just went for training just now anDDD... When have I ever felt that I'm closest to the lane? of cos its when I FALL. FREAKING twice, once I bought my new shoes. 'cool' a not? Its like ouch! a scar a bruise and more bruises...Look as if I went for a fight or something...FREAK.

When will I get clear headed?
I realised that when ever L is around my day seems to brighten. Which is something good yet not. Unspeakable truth. I'm just afraid of letting you know thats all. HAH I dunno what am I talking about at this hour...HAH I just feel like blogging some random thoughts right now.

My hair currently is FREAKING RED.
so dissappointed.
so weird.
so dizzy when I look at my hair from the mirror.
so not ME.
I'll just wait for it to fade and dye dark purple.
Mom will rant then faint. HAH

That's a sad love story.
Take A Bow - Rihanna
Enjoy the song. =)

Go no where when you keep looking back

Go no where when you don't let it go

Go no where when you keep running away

2008-06-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

Super funny equation about woman. HAH

I think I'm super hooked in bowling again.

Wanna learn more!

Just back from training today and I kinda enjoyed bowling...

Really help me to relax and put school work aside, which is something great

cos I found a outlet.

Suddenly life seems to be so busy.

There is so many things I wanna do yet time is not on my side...SAD

I've yet to catch 'KUNG FU PANDA' awww and 'HEROs'.

Any idea where I can get the show hero?

Mmmmm...

Welll great things ahead. STAY TUNE SELENA. LOL

Like talking to myself. *mad*

I'm feeling shy right now cos SE -Sin Ee mention about me in her blog and I took up a paragraph.

haha Yeap! Felt good knowing that people treasure you. teehee Well this a post about you:

SIN EE

I think u must be jumping up and down screaming your lungs out and declaring to the whole world right now that I'm talking about you. HAHA

You've been like a younger sister to me and a very cheerful girl that never fails to brighten up my day =) and turn my frown into a smile so Thanks for that.

Your 'highness' is very infectious so continue being so 'high' but remember to be GLAM always haha cos the camera man is always aiming you HAHA... Well let grow together in cg and in usher alright! *SMILE*

The GIRL WHO BULLIES ME

thanks for always saying 'i love eu' thats how u spell it and it make me feel glad that I'm still being remembered. well for now i dnt wannt praise u too much in case u get to 'high' and start your nonsense. HAHAHA

Love makes me dizzy

and helpless

But still I would like to love when I can. =)

2008-06-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

Jem boy birthday surprise at his place at 11pm I think.
Fed the mosquito while waiting.
That Lawrence randomly climb onto some side wall and made the dog bark...-.-
William parked his car too far back.
Binn Yi was super duper excited. Well there's imrpovement as she didn't 'help' to blow of the candles. haha Inside joke.
Me...CHILL man....haha
That night was super high...
We LOVE multi shots HAHA!

Something random, these are over due pictures HAH...

Next stop will be Edm's wedding. HO HO HO

2008-06-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

Last day of examination was HL birthday and we took a photo was well erm some missing people. HAH but seriously do HOPE to have more class photo as in having everyone inside putting our differences aside. =) Well as we enter into the so called 'holiday' we still got to complete our projects and just now I actually realise that next week school is starting. *WHINE*

Today Ushering was indeed challenging and FUN.
Super chiong and siong la....
Was support IC, Alpha IC, Recycling IC follow by consolidating the svc attendance.
Say Cool a not?
Super duper exhausted...Need a larger capacity.
I beginning to like what I'm doing =)
Some position I took didn't actually went smoothly however its an opportunity for me to learn.
And taking up bigger responsibility and leadership roles was my greatest fear however manage to overcame em'.
Well that's a large step forward once again.

I realised taking pride in the task that was given is super duper important because it determines the kind of result that you are able to produce and also I learn a lot about having spirit of excellence be it school work or ushering, paying attention to small little details shows a lot. Sooo... by looking at the quality of the work shows your attitude.
*Give a pat on selena shoulder* HAHA...
LASTLY something very random, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

Today's excellence is tomorrow's mediocrity

Why settle for second best when you are able to have the BEST?

very true. Passion beats talent!

P.U.S.H

2008-06-14T17:29:00.006+08:00

I'm back from Malaysia.

All in all the trip was super duper FUN.

The get away was good. HAH

The journey to the hotel was freaking LONG.

Ate lots of food there like 5 meals a day kind!

Esp the guys are super BIG eater...

The amount of food they ate its like equivalent to an ELEPHANT.

haha a little exaggeration but its kinda true HAH...

The amount they ate made me feel like puking.

Well, the food there is super delicious and the nicest food there I would say is the SATAY steamboat.

Unique!

For the shopping part, I spent a bomb on the ONITSUKA shoe.

LUV IT!

And the shopping centre is super cool with the ice-skating ring in the shopping centre.

Didn't know Malaysia so up to dated.

There are afew brands there that singapore do not have however I'm super amazed that they got like fish.co there, tony romas, sakae sushi, Aunty anne's, manhatten fish market and so on.

Yea super noob...HAHA

Went there to bowl a few games...

ALL I can say the trip was a good one.

Better than the Thailand trip I went.

Imagine going there just to watch teevee....BORING.

Back to Singapore.

MADNESS!

I got to rush for my project again...

The last 3 days of enjoyment is covered back with the next few days of hell.

I woke up early started doing the project and burn midnght oil all the way to the next morning

NOT HAVING A SINGLE SLEEP...then headed to Sentosa and back to school to submit my project.

Chiong anot?

First time in my LIFE. Anyway there's always a first time la...haha

And before I go....

Let me introduce to you the girl who LIKES to BULLY ME.

SMACK HER.

2008-05-25T17:43:00.002+08:00

The difference when you talk using your head

and not your butt.

2008-05-24T00:31:00.004+08:00

I can foresee the change in life once again.
Bro's gonna ORD and his gonna be home like everyday...
Been feeling like the only child since his not home practically everyday
and now his back so I guess everything gonna be back to square one with him everyday at home.

And I can feel my flesh screaming for a break.
Stop telling me what I should and shouldn't do.
I'm not a KID.
Like what dad said' People can tell you what you should or shouldn't do but the decision still lies on you on the end of the day cos YOUR ARE LIVING YOUR OWN LIFE and not the person.'
SO...PLS let me make my own decision and STOP being so manipulative.

Projects dead lines are GETTING darn darn near.
Monday and friday...
Oh, and I might be away to malaysia...Mmm
still pending though...
I seriously wish i can go to get away from this place, BREAK.

Check out the joker with his followers...HAHA!

Trying to tape the ceiling part 1

Trying to tape the chair part 2 -Like safety belt.

Trying to tape HIMSELF part 3

HAHAHAHAHA...

2008-05-16T01:44:00.002+08:00

So many things so little time.

Projects and assignment piling up to the MAX...

Common test coming in 2 weeks time

OH well i think my blog gonna be dead till common test. HAH

Sometimes I just feel like giving up

and tired of hearing all the crap of encouragement cos it all seems so....

the same over and over again...like I know, don't have to say what I know.

BUT still I know people care la...

Well I just love to talking to bro...

His words seems to lighten that burden after every conversation

Seems like I'm ready to conquer the world again.

What he said really made me ponder.

' Sometimes everything just move so fast that you just got to slow down and think things through then move on ...' yea, very true.

Itching to SHOP.

BUT low $$...

ARgh...

You know what you want?

Then why listen to what people say?

Get lost.

2008-05-11T03:21:00.003+08:00

Someone told me' Life's obstacle isn't a problem but a challenge....'

Not that I don't want to but I wasn't sure.

School been filled with PFA PFA PFA PFA PFA PFA...I can spam the whole blog with it but I wont.

Results is sucky and nothing seem to go right.

AHHh...need to buck up.

If I was alittle careful, alittle diligent...

Well oh well...

I'm miss shopping!

People have different ways in releasing their stress

while sadly when I'm stress and in a shopping mall

I'll just feel like buying something...

I fall in love with gummy bears!

They make you happy.

That Night

Showing your weakest side wasn't your forte

But looking through those eyes of yours, you couldn't hide

cry for the night, give all you got

And when the sun rises...

Leave all that was in those tears

and you are ready to go.

2008-05-09T01:04:00.002+08:00

I just need to rant
So don't waste you time reading.

AND there's not a need to tag about this post.

When what you say didn't help
but made it worst.

So many things so little time.
I don't know where to start from
I chose not too
Procrastination

Keep on delaying thinking you have all the time in the world
yea' when you gonna wake up your idea?

'Thanks' for the one way communication
always expecting people to listen and not talk.
Well if thats how it works then sorry I chose to be silent.
What I say make no way into those ears of yours.

If telling people what to do is your occupation then stay out of my life.
I'll appreciate it.

If what am saying doesn't make you feel good, see the 'X' above click it and exit.

SERIOUSLY IRRITATED AND PISSED.

2008-05-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

well, life have been filled with lots of contradictions.

yes, no

I want, I don't want

love, hate

sure, not sure

I don't think can hold on any longer.

2008-04-29T18:12:00.002+08:00

Thing about love, is I never saw it coming
You kinda crept up into me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

2008-04-25T01:34:00.003+08:00

Not good enough

Just not enough

What you see is just the darn corner of your eyes.

See that fading smile

IbeginingtodislikeHERselena

2008-04-21T22:15:00.004+08:00

Today's classes rather SLACK! Morning lesson was at Vivo city a word to describe the site visit is 'SHIOK'. I finally bought a 'clothing' for my Ipod nano HAH. Having lesson outdoor totally spoil the study mood haha... Then the next lesson was at 1pm and so some of us intended to head back for the 1pm lesson BUT due to the DARN bus we reached school at 2pm...-.-!! so its a missed. Follow by the last one hour break then an hour of class again and the last class for the day was a waste of TIME! The lect just brief us on the projects and assignments thats all...SO that how my day goes yet I still feel exhausted at the end of the day HAH maybe the 'shopping' wear me out hur hur.

A couple of lame shit stuff happen in school today. Totally hilarious. First was sherry.

Very often when student walk out of the library or in they don't scan their student card cos there isn't a need too HOWEVER today was an exception...LOL

Scenario 1

Walking out of library...

Me: sherry why they got the scanning machine at the door of the library?

Sherry: To scan you student card lo.* did an action to explain how the student card should be scan*

Me: REALLY?

Sherry: usually no one would scan one la.....BUT I just see someone scanning...*turn to look*

Passer-by entering the library went to take out his wallet and scan his student card. -.-...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

Seee la, sometime Singaporean very KA BO like to listen to what people are talking about hahaha.... I bet that guy must be year one.

Scenario 2

waiting outside for next class...

R-random person.

R: You not with benny meh?

Me: huh?

R: I saw benny there.

Me: *give that super puzzled look.

R: You are benny's girlfriend right?

Me: NO.

R: Oh sorry see wrong person.

SUPER STUNT. I got no idea who the heck is that person talking to me, everything just happen so fast. HAHA

I receive an email from my uncle who stays at Canada and he wrote a whole LONG passage giving advise about finding a good boyfriend. HAHA After reading the whole long email I only remebered a phrase he mention several times, Man fall in love with their eyes and woman fall in love with their ears. LOL

RANDOM

2008-04-20T23:54:00.003+08:00

Guess I seriously lost the fire to bowl, all my bad habits the time that I sow into my training to bring me where I was totally LOST. What a disappointment =( Its quite frustrating losing what you mastered. OHwell, going back to basic again I guess. Sigh...

And I just signed up for inline skating HAHA! I wanna give it a try and see how it goes.

It irks me when I feel like I'm being controlled. One minute I get all geared up and the next minute you just got to come and burst my bubble. SICK. Sometimes I just wonder about the decision I made was it right anot?... DARN Going through some emotional roller coaster just stinks.

Time to get new bowling shoes =) The old one just...shucks.

My shopping wishlist is getting longer and LONGER.
But I should stop thinking about them and start saving.
Too much damage.
Bowling is enough.

I wonder is there a need to be so competitive?

I wanna give up I wanna give up I wanna give up

such words kept hitting me everyday

Saying is easy to breakaway but ...

When there's no motivation

no appreciation

no joy

WHAT FOR?

I'm all geared up

Yet not

conversation just bring me down.

Shucks.

Whats wrong with me?

2008-04-17T00:12:00.004+08:00

Updates on third day of school. I realised that even though I got lesser modules but they are modules that hold the most credits as in the minimum credit is 4 so still it comes back to square one. Thats how thick one of my book is -.-!! Even the thickness can beat my 'xiao hei' btw Xiao Hei is my lappy's name. haha cool eh?! I got a question about my lect, why can't there be at least one normal one? They all spoke in weird accent which is hard to catch...Wellohwell it takes time to get use to it.

Went Imm and had dinner with mom. Fish and Co. YUMMY cos I ate their seafood platter. Then shopped and mom bought quite a number of stuff for me! HEHE! YEA!... Should go out with her more often. HAHA... Anyway, really wanna thank mom for dinner and all the shopping. DAMAGE!

Trying to snap out of it!

Not doing something that I might regret.

Not listening

2008-04-15T21:15:00.006+08:00

Last two days have been scheduled to help out in the bowling booth which is rather tiring considering I was having flu. Even though its just sitting there waiting for people to sign up BUT still its kinda tiring as I kept running around the convention center due to boredom and keeping myself occupied. haha Overall its kinda fun la also I got to try out other cca's like violin and floor ball hur hur. Highlight for today is that I saw K, I was thinking how I should react when I see him as we haven been talking to each other since the incident happen and its kinda awkward bumping onto him. However as unexpected he came over and we chatted alittle so...I think everything is fine now and it wouldn't be awkward the next time I see K so THUMBS UP. Till now it still felt like some dream that I actually talked to K...haha Another incident that made me feel so smiley is *drums roll*...Oppps I can't say. OH and photo montage looks COOL! The photo above is MES's montage which was done by some PDI students, WELL DONE! OH, I spotted my photo and won a mars chocolate. HAH and thats me in red doing dunno what thing and sherry is at the bottom left. =)

Now adays I have been thinking about weird stuff, am I losing it?

Manipulation

Freedom

is screaming out of me...

My head kept telling me not too

but my heart doesn't seem to listen to it

even though I see no chances in it...

I can't help but keep on falling

weird.

What I see in her

2008-04-12T14:49:00.002+08:00

When I see her in the mirror...

Flaws can't be hide

I'mBACK, stayed overnight in school and I really didn't regret making that decision. Played a game of Uno that took us s decade to finish a ROUND, buai ta han. My brain was completely dead for that night... Turn in bed around 3am and thourgh out the night I didn't sleep well as the night was freezing COLD, torsing and turning on the mat still couldn't get to sleep. My intention wasto bath in the morning but who in the right mind would bath in such a freezing cold weather man. So the second and last day of orientation begins with all the long draggy talks follow by the games...I had a great time doing my station however the waiting kills la...PS: sorry evon have to borrow dexter for a while to do the station LOL. All in the orientation was great and I kinda regret not going for the camp haha Cos sherry made it sounds FUN. HAha..

I got to know you

I got to know you better

It really helps alot when you being understandable

And that helps me stop disliking myself for being who i am

I wish...But I'll snap out of it.

2008-04-09T23:51:00.002+08:00

I never felt so dumb in my life.
I did some stupid stuff today repeatedly despite knowing what I did was dumb and I still do it AGAIN.
ARGHhhhh...
Just got that 'hate it' feeling and the 'why am I such a '*****'

Have you ever dislike being the person you are?

For the moment...

EverythingSeemsToBeUpsideDown.

2008-04-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

I miss you

...mylonghair=(

Today went back to shoola for the orientation meeting and I got to know I'm in as game master. Okie kinda scary leading the game alone and explaining it to STRANGERS however, I'll try my best to do it well la... Then had lunch at mac, I asked for regular meal and the person went to upside it.AHHH ... LARGE FRIES, LARGE MILO so sinful. More running and sit ups... Was there with sherry,evon,peng hui and chiat lin for lunch. I was there for a soild 3 hours eating and talking, great time slacking though...HAH

Evening I went to find my friend who was at Kimage training school and so she CHOPPED my hair.SOB SOB...I didn't see it coming. Well oh well not as if my hair won't grow right?!? HAO ba its gonna be my first and last time. haha

Doors of opportunity

2008-04-06T21:12:00.003+08:00

My day been rather LONG and EXCITING.
Yesterday I got a SMS from my leader telling I'm in or stage usher however, thinking its just another normal opportunity of being under study as stage usher so I was kinda relax...
Well this morning while I was rushing down for serving I got a call from KahYie and she told me I got to attend the IC briefing which is unusual for a normal usher like me so for that moment I thought she was kidding with me but she wasn't. At that moment I was thinking I'm gonna be late and really I did miss the briefing HAHA... SO another BIG NEWS came while on my way, my leader called me and told me I'm the support IC..WOAH DOUBLE stunner...! Okie I'm dead. I'm late... By the time I manage to reach for support it was almost done haha but it all went well cos Hui ling covered my job. I was in a flustered didn't know whats my job scope and so on...I KNOW NUTS ABOUT BEING A SUPPORT IC...However when I reached Hui Ling was there to guide me on my job scope and so on so I roughly got an idea what a support IC should do, but its all theory and when it comes to hands on things get very different. HAH So though I was alittle late for the opportunity given to me I still wanna be grateful about it.
Even till now when I think back it felt like some dream...*SLAP*

Okay, I don't know what I got myself into or rather my HAIR. During Easter I got to bump into thi usher whose from expo I think and I guess she's studying in kimage so she's looking for models for her exam. She's required to do colouring, perming and cutting so she actually approached me asking me if I wanna be her "white' mouse, of cos I wanted to say 'NO' thanks haha BUT somehow said 'okay' GOSH...okie SO....I got to choose between the 3 and of cos I chose colouring la... BUT relax people I've yet to meet her again and I'm praying damn hard that she dn't screw my hair....

ALrighty last week of holiday to go...WHOO lala...

I definitely felt good to be praise over and over again. =)

It felt good to be fruitful.

2008-04-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

Too much food...*VOMIT*

A hope to hold

2008-04-04T16:38:00.003+08:00

Above is quite a summery of what I did with XBC. School is starting and such outing gotta be held back so let us just enjoy for the moment however, I think my last week of holiday gonna be very BURNED... Last minute help out in orientation having no idea what am I suppose to do and who I'll meet also the dilemma to work or not. MONEY problem is kicking in man...Detest such unnecessary troubles. SIGH..RAIN DOWN! All I have is just 5 loaves and 2 fishes tell me what I can do with it...lost. =(

When I didn't know what to do, feeling small in side and the song came...

Corrinne May -Five Loaves And Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hand
sand every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

At least there's Someone to believe rather than not having...a hope

I hope my 5 loaves and 2 fishes is enough of an sacrifice.

However, tossing and turning in bed...

I feel the dilemma

Even though head knowledge tells me You can make it possible

but deep down inside I'm just filled with doubt

in assurance holding me back.

It was the first time I wonder have You ever hear me...

crying out, making a prayer...

Oh well

I'm just gonna do it with this much I have.

Take it, hope its not too small.

The decision I make will it make Him move?

2008-03-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

Something kept inside that's hard to express...
I wanna let it out.

2008-03-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

Easter photo with the CG.

To be part of...

2008-03-26T15:19:00.002+08:00

Monday
Out with BY for lunch at Ding Tai Feng. Like so tai tai chilling out at the chinese restaurant ate my favourite Xiao Long Bao and Fried Rice with shrimp and egg =) Can't help but to give in my crave. Have been spending quite a bit on food FOOD food glorious FOOD... Was suppose to work that day but due to net work problems we wasn't required to work so ended up doing some shopping. Did some DAMAGE to the wallet, bought my long waiting havanias and a handbag thats hard to resist as the lady was like going 'after discount its $49' 'So u wanna get it?' ME: 'still thinking' and LADY: 'okie the cheapest $39' ME: "okie, I'll get it'. SEE...so tempting. While BY was so engross and over the top in the shop that sells necklace pendents and so on...

Tuesday
Had to choose my IS module and I chose Environment. My first time choosing and its rather exciting and I was kinda like kan chiong spider. When everyone asked what I chose their reply was 'EH SLACKER' haha... then was in school doing some changes to the rusty dusty notice board. -Still under construction. Head to redhill to settle some important stuff and after was work. And after work XBC outing again =) Once again spending on food is damaging as well. I ate shrimp HK noodle with sunny side up egg and sweet potato in ginger soup. We bought tau huay this time...BUT... So end of the day I was totally drained! KO-ed in the car so I didn't know what happen on the way home. HAH

2008-03-25T01:35:00.002+08:00

I HATE DURIANs.